Entry 7

With all of the challenges recently my emotional state has been a lot less stable than usual and has started impacting my work.

As it's my intention to make work feel good, I really need to focus on keeping myself healthy and happy with all of the crazy things going on out of my control.

I listed a few last entry, yesterday I also just discovered that my co-founder is actively political and supports some ideals I wouldn't have wanted to be associated with. My initial reaction was a bit of numbness followed by some internal searching and going back to feeling like I'm on shaky ground lately. This morning I did a prolonged meditation on it and realized, it's not that important to me (at least not now) and maybe this was put in front of me as the next challenge. Can I continue to do good work while feeling a bit unstable and knowing that my co-founder supports some things that grate against my understanding of the world?

The answer I found was somewhat surprising, my meditation told me to 'soften', meaning I should acknowledge there are many things I just don't understand and at my level within the US political system, are simply unknowable. So, I believe my stance is to soften my feelings and surrender to what the world is bringing me. Not so easy at the moment, but we can either grind and push or find the ease and flow of this world. I choose the path of ease and flow.

So, today I learned that my political ideals are to embrace humans and forget ideologies. This doesn't mean I won't fight for human rights, data-driven medicine, it does mean I can embrace the humans involved and seek to understand before I push to 'correct'.